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Sometimes I feel like my life is a circus.

We’re a pretty laid back family, pretty laid back jobs, a crazy laid back street full of people who are always playing outside and socializing. You would think if our life was so unscheduled, I’d be able to take my Addy out front whenever I wanted to let her play, and have some adult conversation… you would think. I struggle daily with my constant growing list of “to do’s”…. and I never get everything crammed in my week. There’s always work to be done, always something to clean, a bottle to be fed, an event at preschool, a husband to hang out with… it’s craziness juggling everything! Someone put my life on a schedule, cause this total freedom is killing me!

I want to be able to enjoy the time I spend with Ayla. Take in every new thing she does, and really love on her. Nothing else on my mind but the pure joy she brings to my life. I want to be able to take Addy outside and not think about the sessions that need to be edited or the floor that needs to be swept. I want to be able to take her to dance class, like I’ve been promising her, and really have the time to devote to her and her interests. I want to go to sleep before 1am!!! I want to truly live in my moments and not be pushing toward my next “to do”. Does anyone else feel this way?!?!

Hopefully things will change tomorrow. We’ve discussed  a schedule, and let’s pray I stick to it! I’ll let you know how it went next Monday!! Until then, check out this beauty…

Thanks for letting me take your girl wherever I wanted and dress her up like the adorable doll that she is! She was full of personality and so much fun to capture!

This week has been one of the worst! wth world! I’m tired of it, and I’m choosing to smile through the chaos. Okay… today I choose to smile through the chaos! Yesterday… not so much. I was a wild woman yesterday… Aaron can vouch for that. I don’t think he’s ever seen me so crazy emotional. I could list all the things that went wrong, but I honestly don’t want to relive them!!! Let’s just say, A LOT happened. But today. Today I choose happiness. contentment. sanity.

This brings me to my second edition of Thankful Thursday.

* I’m thankful for an amazing pastor who makes me feel needed. Just know this does not give you permission to make me feel TOO needed!!

* I am so dang thankful for my momma. She always listens and lets me cry on her. Always makes things seem not so bad. She was willing to hold my hand and be in the room when I had Ayla… braver than me! Even I didn’t want to see that! So thanks mom. Thanks for being there, for all the words of advice, for being almost the only person I talk to on the phone… even when your phone drops the call 300 times! I’m incredibly thankful for you.

throw back picture… this was from our trip to Jackson Hole last October.

Five years ago today, I married my best friend. I had no idea how crazy the next 5 years of my life would be! Seven months after we married, my daddy died. My life completely did a 180. I honestly was not the same person, and I don’t think I’ll ever be that person again. Aaron is amazing for putting up with the changes that happened so soon after our wedding day. It took a little but we finally found some sense of normalcy, then found ourselves pregnant! The next few years were even more crazy… an adorable newborn, a huge move from a house I loved, lots of drama, a renewing of our vows, an amazing year, and another adorable baby girl! Our story isn’t pretty, it’s not one of those “love at first sight, together all the time, always happy” stories…  but it’s our story, and I wouldn’t change it. He’s the only guy I know that will change dirty diapers without question, quietly take the newborn into the living room and turn off the monitor so I can get some rest, let me rant and vent without trying to fix the problem, and just let me be my goofy self.

I love our life.

I’m so blessed to be married to a father who wholeheartedly loves his daughters, a man of God who’s not afraid to pray, a protector who will check the front door at any hour of the night when I hear a noise, a laid back guy who doesn’t say a word when I test his patience, a giver who completely believes the same way I do about finances related to charity, a dreamer who lets me talk about goals and dreams and almost always takes my ideas to the next level, my soul mate who would do anything for me.

I love you, A. Happy Anniversary.